“…Yes, there is such a huge amount of information we gain from cosmic life and a pure heart, yet almost no one to share it with. Even my wife who has been meditating a long time, does not have the same experiences I do. Perhaps I mastered consciousness because of that lack of a resource for those who are sincere and open. The same reason I became a manager in business, because I didn’t think any of them were much good. So we begin doing most of our work alone.
I went for over thirty years before even mentioning my spiritual experiences to others, here in the world. When I did it was unsatisfying, so I kept working on my awareness and its interface with others for another decade and more, until I could have successful communications with my audience, whatever their state of consciousness. (Trees, rocks, people, a hawk, angels, doesn’t matter – though my own species is of greatest interest to me…).
Regarding the maya you now experience as worldly life – Yes, it alternates in our life – first, the surface material life is real, then we discover the light of God and all the divine realm, and spiritual energies become real and the material one fades. But then it comes back, with greater depth and meaning, once we have let go of it.
Also to keep in mind that after we have suffered abuse and trauma, especially in a deep way as kids, such profound stress can sit there in the awareness, almost unseen, yet coloring everything. My way of dealing with it was to feel quietly quite angry at the world for a long time, for the hurt and disappointments, which I masked with a faux feeling of superiority, and arrogance. Just to be clear I am not seeing this in you, yet just bringing it up as something to be aware of.
Our dreams will manifest easily once we are fully established in Totality. We have thoughts, especially those tied to deep yearnings of the heart, which the divine hears and runs off to fulfill. It becomes a new way of thinking and being, profoundly altering the psychology from one of doubt and effort, to one of confidence and ease. Of course it is a process, and our most difficult student is ourselves – ha ha.
All the best and all blessings to you,
Jai Guru Dev”