Living Brahman we live in the three worlds [Heaven, Earth, and Hell], as a practical matter. As fun and blissful as it is, Totality is available so that we can accomplish our tasks, ever transforming Earth life into Cosmic life for all.
Devotion to Brahman is a prerequisite for this work. Otherwise our immaturity will impede us and create delusion. Brahman means no unresolved karma, nothing on the shopping list we came in with; established in freedom.
We can then decide what to do, guided innocently by purity and compassion.
Given a lifetime of global living and meeting Sri Brahmananda Saraswati, in addition to my critical spiritual education through the techniques, actions, writing and speech of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi (whew!), I see our human lives in their fullness, and set out to practically reflect that. For example, the Cosmic template of a marriage is simply each person gathering all the love of each day and pouring it into the other. Quite simple. Here is a comprehensive example of establishing that here on Earth:
My wife was severely abused and terrorized as a child, so that her and her sister were seen closer to wives of their father, than daughters. This caused my wife to have a split personality. Very subtle, and I toiled outside the gates of the awful hellish “family” that the old bastard had set up for over twenty years. I did not know what was going on nor did my wife. A deeply hidden and interlocking dynamic to uphold always the secret of the past abuse, that the family was locked into like zombies. It almost looked normal.
My father in law was the most evil person I have ever known personally. Everything he said was a lie, about his past and everything else, always running his complete deception, and yet there before me was the kindliest looking old man, an upright pillar of the community, shoes shined, hair like a marine, impeccable manners with a good sense of humor and twinkling eyes. An evil, twisted, insane, sadistic, demonic personality hiding in plain sight.
Over the years, by meditating diligently, both me and my wife, I began to ever so slowly make sense of the craziness simply by paying close attention, and noticing some things that were way off. I had become a target of the family, with all of my power slowly taken away. I was broken down to nothing as I assumed more and more of the family’s karma, the devil’s bargain. I filled at least a five gallon bucket with my tears, and even stopped dreaming due to constant nightmares – every day was pain, physical pain, like fire in my body. Normal functioning took great effort though I continued to meet all my responsibilities.
Slowly I began to piece it all together, even though for years my wife would totally deny everything, and conditions were set for every shared thought. Anyway, about the time I began this blog, things began to break loose and my wife’s delusion quickly evaporated as a result of my growing living of Brahman and her ascent into Unity.
Many miracles occurred, though the effort lasting as long as it did, over two decades, I developed some post-traumatic stress symptoms that I was working on clearing, until recently. Even with powerful meditation, the emotional distortion I was forced to endure needed endless clearing, a very gradual process on my own, like eliminating a magnetic field.
Without the assistance of Divinity and Sri Brahmananda Saraswati success would not have been possible. I learned all about developing relationships with the Divine Beings, and how to make such relationships effective in daily life, to fulfill really big desires. My wife is completely OK now and the kind loving soul whom I glimpsed for moments before is here permanently. She also understands her process of enslavement and redemption.
After this horrible being died several years ago I would go down to purgatory and beat him up. But it didn’t feel good after the first time, so I left that alone and got on with earth life. Then when I checked on him several months ago, I discovered he had lost his human life and is now a muskrat. Surprise! lol – (this event was touched on in a previous post about reincarnation and de-incarnation). All is well and I won, though it was a truly exhausting and maddening experience from which I was still recovering, until recently.
This is where Amma or Mata Amritanandamayi – such a beautiful name – comes in. I had heard of Her for many years, though as an accident of culture, did not take Her seriously. Let me explain. In South East Asia where I grew up, “Amma” or “Amah” is the name for the nanny, the nursemaid. I had several growing up. So when I heard Her name, I thought, “well I don’t need a nanny…”. 🙂
During the course of publishing this blog, I am contacted from time to time by readers. One such reader did recently from Amma’s ashram, and we began a dialogue. In the course of this I wrote of my experiences and something of the crushing effort undertaken, as described above.
Just prior to me sending this description of my twenty year burden and its resolution to my pen pal, I had incurred a small karma from Amma, due to my previous ignorant opinion of Her, that played out as follows 🙂
When I first attempted to write my friend this description using an email program, upon completing my writing, the email program crashed, without saving anything automatically as a draft. This had never happened before. I took a breather, and then decided to use a word processing program with auto saves, which I would then paste into email. So…upon completing the document again, my PC immediately blue-screened and locked up. After a hard reboot, the document was gone with no saves. Hmmm.
Something was going on beyond my comprehension, so I took a couple of hours off and went outside to continue clearing a path through the brush in back. During my work, it occurred to me what was happening. After I came to terms with it, I was able to successfully write my friend and send the description.
This kind person then wordlessly took my burden to Amma during a satsang and Amma took it on, took on the residual pain, and cleared it for me completely in a matter of minutes. The effect was immediate and sustained.
I also do such energy work in the course of daily life and am aware how completely the job must be done, and it was. Precise energetic surgery. For the first time in many many years I sleep soundly and awaken with my residual burden gone, untroubled. I am so grateful to Amma, and I let Her know this, apologized for my previous ignorance of Her, and let Her know that I would help Her equally if the need arose. 🙂
Amma radiates Bliss and compassion. it is quite thick, like a Divine perfume. Naturally I find it intoxicating, and briefly imagined myself floating towards it as if on a magic carpet. 🙂 Though I also recognize my own path I began to travel so many years ago, the path of growing the light within until it overtakes and purifies everything here on Earth. Amma is quite busy and I am too, though I do now have the freedom to look in on Her whenever I like.
It sounds corny when written down but I have had a maxim in my mind for a long time, “Onward and Upward!” 🙂
My deepest gratitude to Mata Amritanandamayi, Sri Brahmananda Saraswati, and Maharishi Mahesh Yogi.