A couple of previous posts have introduced my relationship with Guru Dev – How He appeared to me fully in the spring of 1993, in the midst of my whirlwind householder’s life. First, let me explain that Guru Dev dropped His earthly body on May 20th, 1953, just over a year before I was born. So there was no chance of meeting Him in the flesh this time around.
However in 1980, after working for the TM Movement for a year outside Waverly, Missouri, farming and building a residence facility, in exchange for taking the TM-Siddhis course, my senses began to refine. What may be called a second sight developed – Many have written about such occurrences and mine is probably similar, though the scope and depth of perception has grown considerably over time.
About six months after leaving Missouri, and then living in Santa Barbara, California, I began to see the bust of Guru Dev come up in my second sight, my third eye. This happened on long bicycle rides when I could quiet my mind enough through vigorous exercise for such sight to occur.
Fast forward thirteen years later to 1993, and I had a life changing visit with Him. His energy was present with me for several days, and I memorably found myself sitting somewhere in deep space with Him, absolutely calm and simply enjoying the rapturous view of the galaxies, while we were sitting there together, suspended in “outer space”.
Also my heart was so satisfied by His visit. He felt like the perfect father, friend, and spiritual master to me then, and He does now. 🙂 Finally someone I could trust and confide in, and very sparingly ask for help when needed – and I do mean sparingly – not even once a year.
Any over-reliance or leaning on Him would be, I feel, profoundly disrespectful and not advance either of our lives; an unwelcome distraction – He is not here to rescue me. I continue to give thanks to Him more than daily, asking blessings for others and general guidance, though the specific requests for me are saved for rare occasions. The friendship transcends any singular fulfillment.
Over time our relationship has changed, from my complete and abject surrender at His feet in the beginning, to sharing more of myself with Him. The teaching He provides is very simple, a comparison on my part of His ever-present energy, with mine. That is it. As you might imagine there is a fair gap in our respective energies – lol – with so much practical knowledge and ability gained from each of my subsequent recognitions of Him.
Over the years the gap has lessened a little, to the point where He has now taken an active role in my specific desire fulfillment, clearing obstacles with a precision that is beyond human capability. I will never be His equal, though by bringing me to Brahman, our relationship is closer than ever. By making His presence known, He is the one that initially pointed me in the right direction to clearly see the three worlds [Heaven, Earth, and Hell], and learn to discern my values from such experiences.
My formal meditation program these days consists of TM (Transcendental Meditation) twice a day, twenty minutes per session. Depending on what is needed I’ll sometimes do an extra meditation or even an hour long session, though not often. Other than that, it is all about Him. 🙂
~ Jai Guru Dev ~